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castalieI couldn't wait to come home today, guys! I scanned my flist this morning before leaving for work and it was a lot of fun because it felt as if every entry on my friends page had turned into an SPN entry by default lol And now I finally watched the episode myself, yay!
The episode lasted forty two minutes, something like that, right? But the way I watched it, it was more like an hour and a half - I kept rewinding scene after scene. In other words, I LOVED it, so this will be a positive review, just so you know.
But first, SPN 2x01 Post-reaction. So I'm crying my heart out - because I'm one of those persons who cry in front of their tv shamelessly - and I'm looking at up at Maman with my eyes all puffy and my voice trembling and I'm going 'They killed my dad in my show!' to which my mother replies, without missing a beat, 'They killed the dad in Numb3rs?' and I'm like 'no, John Winchester!' and then she says 'how could they do that?!' and seriously, this is reason #4718785 why I think my mother is the most fantastic mother ever, because she always takes everything in stride.
She made me feel better for a second, because it's always nice knowing someone gets it. Even when they don't really and are, in fact, just humouring you ;-)
And now onto the real review - How Supernatural Owns Me for All Eternity. The End. Aka SPN 2x01 - In My Time of Dying.
Actually know what? I don't know where to begin. That episode KILLED ME! It was - okay, see, I'd watched the promo so I knew Dean would be in a coma and that they would lose him for a moment and even though I was thrilled that it was gonna happen, I still believed that maybe it would last just, say, ten minutes or something like that? A bit like "Faith", you know what I mean? So when the episode kept going and going and showed me that, yes, that was the whole episode - man, it exceeded all my expectations and made me SO HAPPY I could burst! Then of course it also broke my heart into tiny wee little pieces and made cry and cry but it was still being wonderfully fantastic so, yeah, that premiere totally made my day and I love SPN til the end of time. The end.
Only not because I do have stuff to say, thanks.
1. Let's start with Sam. I think I never love Sam more than when he's being totally focused on Dean, which again is my bias talking, I'm totally not gonna apologise for that *sticks tongue* But seriously, protective!Sam totally does it for me and seeing him so lost and desperately fighting to bring Dean back... there's no words for how much I love that side of him. I do have my issues with Sam every now and then but when he's good, he's good. When Dean and I thought that John had 'forsaken' Dean, the only one left was Sam and I wasn't afraid because Sam is a stubborn son of a bitch and there was no way he was gonna let Dean go without a fight, and not even then... He also broke my heart because he thought he was completely alone in his fight for Dean and it was like history was repeating itself and oh, Sam!
I'm not always pro-Sam in his fights with Papa - he's definitely right on some subjects but there're others when I think he's just pushing it - but I love how angry he is on Dean's behalf... he's hurting for himself and for Dean and dude, Sam rocked in that ep, no question about that. He also kicked ass; loved his "wanna bet" at the beginning, while being hurt and bleeding all over the place.
Oh, oh! And that scene when he's coming back to Dean's room with the coffee and he sees John's body on the floor and he runs to him and call for help and uh, did I already mention the whole 'oh, Sam' thing?
2. Now onto John. OH PAPA WHAT DID THEY DO TO YOU? I haven't been spoiled for anything that will or might happen in the rest of the season so I have no idea where they're going with this but all I know is that I'm heartbroken and I just want to cry *cries* I also want to apologise to John: I did believe, for a time, that he was putting the hunt before Dean and knowing what I know now, well I really feel ashamed for that. Because, yes, for all my love for John, for all the defending that I've been doing on his behalf - never denying his faults or forgetting about his mistakes, btw - I did doubt him and it makes me very sad!
And, for instance, that scene in the basement when he's summoning the demon? I couldn't even focus on how hot he wasthough he totally was, of course because the only thing I could think about was 'but you promised me Sam, papa, you fucking promised you weren't going to hunt Big Demon now' and I couldn't believe he was doing what I thought he was doing. And then... then it all made sense and I felt ashamed for ever doubting John. Because he'd been planning it all along, hadn't he? He'd been thinking of a way to save Dean from the get go and John being John he wasn't going to take the risk to reveal his plan to Sam and it just pains me all around now. It must have hurt to listen to Sam telling him all those things... though he did ask for it, it's not even as if I could blame Sam. I also wish Sam knew about John making a fucking deal with Big Demon and giving! away! the! Colt! To save his son! ♥ ♥
Those Winchester men, they know how to break a fangirl's heart *sigh*
As it happens, papa made me cry twice. The second time was when he flat-lined on us. The first time was when he apologised to Dean and let him know how much he loves him. That scene... there are NO WORDS for how much I love, nay, adore, worship it! He told Dean! He told Dean all those things I've been dying for him to say, all the things that Dean needed to hear and it was such a perfect mirror scene to "Devil's Trap", too. I want to kiss Kripke because he gave me the words once and they were a lie, meant to deceive and trick Dean, but this time... oh this time they were real and John opened to Dean and I'm all teary just thinking about it!
I love that he admitted his faults, admitted he'd made mistakes. Love that he told Dean how important his role had been all his life. Love that he apologised for putting such a heavy burden on Dean's shoulders, loved that he showed Dean how valued and loved he was... and all that time John was crying and trying to keep a smile on his face and we also know what was behind it all and OHMYGOD!
I love that he felt he needed to make his peace with his boys - or at least leave on a not angry note with Sam, what with the whole 'not fighting anymore' with him which, yeah, is pretty big in their relationship and then Dean and the whole talk... Of course at the same time, he was scaring me as well - it was bound to end up in tears. And then he bent over and, okay, so I seriously thought he was gonna kiss Dean on the cheek, so sue me, but the whole whispering thing was incredibly hot too. And uh what I mean here is, eeek what the hell did he say exactly? Cause it was kinda long, too. Argh, why the sekrit? I swear I won't tell Sam! And is it yet another burden Dean will have to carry?
3. And speaking of... DEAN! Feels like I could just sum it up in a very short summary which would go along the lines of OHMYGOD HOW MUCH DO I LOVE YOU, DEAN, LET ME COUNT THE WAYS! Yes, sometimes caplocks are a way of life.
But seriously... it's like everything I love about Dean, everything, was in that episode. On a light note, it was in his funny remarks - he made me laugh several times. Dean always cracks me up and this time was no exception. Then it was in his determination to beat the Evil Son of Bitches, always the hunter.
And then we had all the deeper layers - like his love for Sam, how the first thing he did when he 'woke' up was to call out for his brother. It was in his love for his family which, dude, was made even more intense than usual - which is saying something - because he refused to die because of them. Not even, 'I don't want to die because I'm too young and there are so many things I want to see', oh no, not with Dean, with him it's all about his family - about Dad, about Sam especially, it's about being there for them, protecting them, helping them. It's about their need for him and, of course, his own need for them. And this... this is so Dean *loves him*
Then you had Dean's relationship with John, his love and devotion but also his issues with him and it hurt so fucking bad seeing him get angry at John for not being there for him, for putting the hunt before him... it hurts twice now, in fact, because we now know that John was helping Dean, that he was planning on doing something desperate to save his son and Dean couldn't see it... and then he couldn't remember anything, anyway. And we also had Dean's relationship with John and Sam at the same time, ie how he always comes between the two when they're arguing - it never gets old, or less painful, to see him trying to calm things down, to stop the fight and separate his father and brother... I can't get enough of those scenes, even if I always feel for Dean.
Back to the John-Dean scene now. I always say that Jensen Ackles fucking owns his part - and me too, in the process - and it's scenes like that totally do me in. Just - his face! How many emotions did he have in just that particular scene, uh? How many? A lot and I enjoyed every single one of them :-) It was the vulnerability that did it - he knew John wanted to talk about something and he was worried and then he didn't even know what to say! I loved his "it's really you this time" because yeah, he'd been hurt once, this time he needed it to be different and it was like 'dude, I can't believe this is happening... again, only for real.' Besides he was still physically weak and hurt!character is a big kink of mine.
Speaking of which, I adored the scene with reaper!Tessa - I'm actually glad she turned out to be Death because when the character appeared I remember thinking 'oh, it only took them less than twenty minutes before bringing the token damsel in distress', only Kripke showed me that I shouldn't feel too complacent because he could play a lot of tricks on me if he wanted to. Yeah anyway back to Tessa, I loved her scene when she's trying to coax Dean into giving in to death. It actually reminded me of a short story that I wrote when I was a teenager with a kid in a coma who was regularly visited by Death who used different faces each time and who was trying to convince him to follow It. So anyway bis, the whole theme really pleased me. I could totally have written that part of the episode, see? And it made for a wonderfully intense moment... I love that reaper!Tessa was trying to make Dean choose instead of just taking him as we always suppose is Death' MO. I also shivered at the thought of all those angry spirits being originally people who'd just refused to let go... it was so sad. I did shiver even more at the idea of Dean eventually becoming one of them, becoming one of the very same things he'd hunted all his life. Talk about a choice.
It also made an interesting contrast to "Faith" where Dean wasn't fighting at all... I just tremble at the thought of Dean following Tessa in the end *clings* I'm also wondering at his comment of "not feeling right" when he came back - was it just the normal reaction of everything he went through or something more? Same thing with the whole "you're already on borrowed time" because that's another loaded comment, imho. Incidentally, "Faith" is like the gift that keeps on giving, isn't it? Unless she was just referring to Dean's chasing her away right at the beginning of "In My Time of Dying". In any case, melikey!
So my love for Dean in the episode knew no bounds. Which, I know, isn't that different from usual, but whatever - he was in turn cocky, worried, scared, funny, determined, moved, angry, resigned, forceful, sad, relieved, and so many other things that make me fall in love with his character all over again each time I see him *happy sigh*
Onto the Random:
And I know I'm forgetting stuff but this is long enough as it is, I guess.
*happy sigh* Oh man it's so good having my show back! I love SPN because it makes me feel a gazillion emotions and it makes me react like whoa. I'll startle and gasp and go "OH PUTAIN" a lot and it never leaves me indifferent and I just adore that :-)
The episode lasted forty two minutes, something like that, right? But the way I watched it, it was more like an hour and a half - I kept rewinding scene after scene. In other words, I LOVED it, so this will be a positive review, just so you know.
But first, SPN 2x01 Post-reaction. So I'm crying my heart out - because I'm one of those persons who cry in front of their tv shamelessly - and I'm looking at up at Maman with my eyes all puffy and my voice trembling and I'm going 'They killed my dad in my show!' to which my mother replies, without missing a beat, 'They killed the dad in Numb3rs?' and I'm like 'no, John Winchester!' and then she says 'how could they do that?!' and seriously, this is reason #4718785 why I think my mother is the most fantastic mother ever, because she always takes everything in stride.
She made me feel better for a second, because it's always nice knowing someone gets it. Even when they don't really and are, in fact, just humouring you ;-)
And now onto the real review - How Supernatural Owns Me for All Eternity. The End. Aka SPN 2x01 - In My Time of Dying.
Actually know what? I don't know where to begin. That episode KILLED ME! It was - okay, see, I'd watched the promo so I knew Dean would be in a coma and that they would lose him for a moment and even though I was thrilled that it was gonna happen, I still believed that maybe it would last just, say, ten minutes or something like that? A bit like "Faith", you know what I mean? So when the episode kept going and going and showed me that, yes, that was the whole episode - man, it exceeded all my expectations and made me SO HAPPY I could burst! Then of course it also broke my heart into tiny wee little pieces and made cry and cry but it was still being wonderfully fantastic so, yeah, that premiere totally made my day and I love SPN til the end of time. The end.
Only not because I do have stuff to say, thanks.
1. Let's start with Sam. I think I never love Sam more than when he's being totally focused on Dean, which again is my bias talking, I'm totally not gonna apologise for that *sticks tongue* But seriously, protective!Sam totally does it for me and seeing him so lost and desperately fighting to bring Dean back... there's no words for how much I love that side of him. I do have my issues with Sam every now and then but when he's good, he's good. When Dean and I thought that John had 'forsaken' Dean, the only one left was Sam and I wasn't afraid because Sam is a stubborn son of a bitch and there was no way he was gonna let Dean go without a fight, and not even then... He also broke my heart because he thought he was completely alone in his fight for Dean and it was like history was repeating itself and oh, Sam!
I'm not always pro-Sam in his fights with Papa - he's definitely right on some subjects but there're others when I think he's just pushing it - but I love how angry he is on Dean's behalf... he's hurting for himself and for Dean and dude, Sam rocked in that ep, no question about that. He also kicked ass; loved his "wanna bet" at the beginning, while being hurt and bleeding all over the place.
Oh, oh! And that scene when he's coming back to Dean's room with the coffee and he sees John's body on the floor and he runs to him and call for help and uh, did I already mention the whole 'oh, Sam' thing?
2. Now onto John. OH PAPA WHAT DID THEY DO TO YOU? I haven't been spoiled for anything that will or might happen in the rest of the season so I have no idea where they're going with this but all I know is that I'm heartbroken and I just want to cry *cries* I also want to apologise to John: I did believe, for a time, that he was putting the hunt before Dean and knowing what I know now, well I really feel ashamed for that. Because, yes, for all my love for John, for all the defending that I've been doing on his behalf - never denying his faults or forgetting about his mistakes, btw - I did doubt him and it makes me very sad!
And, for instance, that scene in the basement when he's summoning the demon? I couldn't even focus on how hot he was
Those Winchester men, they know how to break a fangirl's heart *sigh*
As it happens, papa made me cry twice. The second time was when he flat-lined on us. The first time was when he apologised to Dean and let him know how much he loves him. That scene... there are NO WORDS for how much I love, nay, adore, worship it! He told Dean! He told Dean all those things I've been dying for him to say, all the things that Dean needed to hear and it was such a perfect mirror scene to "Devil's Trap", too. I want to kiss Kripke because he gave me the words once and they were a lie, meant to deceive and trick Dean, but this time... oh this time they were real and John opened to Dean and I'm all teary just thinking about it!
I love that he admitted his faults, admitted he'd made mistakes. Love that he told Dean how important his role had been all his life. Love that he apologised for putting such a heavy burden on Dean's shoulders, loved that he showed Dean how valued and loved he was... and all that time John was crying and trying to keep a smile on his face and we also know what was behind it all and OHMYGOD!
I love that he felt he needed to make his peace with his boys - or at least leave on a not angry note with Sam, what with the whole 'not fighting anymore' with him which, yeah, is pretty big in their relationship and then Dean and the whole talk... Of course at the same time, he was scaring me as well - it was bound to end up in tears. And then he bent over and, okay, so I seriously thought he was gonna kiss Dean on the cheek, so sue me, but the whole whispering thing was incredibly hot too. And uh what I mean here is, eeek what the hell did he say exactly? Cause it was kinda long, too. Argh, why the sekrit? I swear I won't tell Sam! And is it yet another burden Dean will have to carry?
3. And speaking of... DEAN! Feels like I could just sum it up in a very short summary which would go along the lines of OHMYGOD HOW MUCH DO I LOVE YOU, DEAN, LET ME COUNT THE WAYS! Yes, sometimes caplocks are a way of life.
But seriously... it's like everything I love about Dean, everything, was in that episode. On a light note, it was in his funny remarks - he made me laugh several times. Dean always cracks me up and this time was no exception. Then it was in his determination to beat the Evil Son of Bitches, always the hunter.
And then we had all the deeper layers - like his love for Sam, how the first thing he did when he 'woke' up was to call out for his brother. It was in his love for his family which, dude, was made even more intense than usual - which is saying something - because he refused to die because of them. Not even, 'I don't want to die because I'm too young and there are so many things I want to see', oh no, not with Dean, with him it's all about his family - about Dad, about Sam especially, it's about being there for them, protecting them, helping them. It's about their need for him and, of course, his own need for them. And this... this is so Dean *loves him*
Then you had Dean's relationship with John, his love and devotion but also his issues with him and it hurt so fucking bad seeing him get angry at John for not being there for him, for putting the hunt before him... it hurts twice now, in fact, because we now know that John was helping Dean, that he was planning on doing something desperate to save his son and Dean couldn't see it... and then he couldn't remember anything, anyway. And we also had Dean's relationship with John and Sam at the same time, ie how he always comes between the two when they're arguing - it never gets old, or less painful, to see him trying to calm things down, to stop the fight and separate his father and brother... I can't get enough of those scenes, even if I always feel for Dean.
Back to the John-Dean scene now. I always say that Jensen Ackles fucking owns his part - and me too, in the process - and it's scenes like that totally do me in. Just - his face! How many emotions did he have in just that particular scene, uh? How many? A lot and I enjoyed every single one of them :-) It was the vulnerability that did it - he knew John wanted to talk about something and he was worried and then he didn't even know what to say! I loved his "it's really you this time" because yeah, he'd been hurt once, this time he needed it to be different and it was like 'dude, I can't believe this is happening... again, only for real.' Besides he was still physically weak and hurt!character is a big kink of mine.
Speaking of which, I adored the scene with reaper!Tessa - I'm actually glad she turned out to be Death because when the character appeared I remember thinking 'oh, it only took them less than twenty minutes before bringing the token damsel in distress', only Kripke showed me that I shouldn't feel too complacent because he could play a lot of tricks on me if he wanted to. Yeah anyway back to Tessa, I loved her scene when she's trying to coax Dean into giving in to death. It actually reminded me of a short story that I wrote when I was a teenager with a kid in a coma who was regularly visited by Death who used different faces each time and who was trying to convince him to follow It. So anyway bis, the whole theme really pleased me. I could totally have written that part of the episode, see? And it made for a wonderfully intense moment... I love that reaper!Tessa was trying to make Dean choose instead of just taking him as we always suppose is Death' MO. I also shivered at the thought of all those angry spirits being originally people who'd just refused to let go... it was so sad. I did shiver even more at the idea of Dean eventually becoming one of them, becoming one of the very same things he'd hunted all his life. Talk about a choice.
It also made an interesting contrast to "Faith" where Dean wasn't fighting at all... I just tremble at the thought of Dean following Tessa in the end *clings* I'm also wondering at his comment of "not feeling right" when he came back - was it just the normal reaction of everything he went through or something more? Same thing with the whole "you're already on borrowed time" because that's another loaded comment, imho. Incidentally, "Faith" is like the gift that keeps on giving, isn't it? Unless she was just referring to Dean's chasing her away right at the beginning of "In My Time of Dying". In any case, melikey!
So my love for Dean in the episode knew no bounds. Which, I know, isn't that different from usual, but whatever - he was in turn cocky, worried, scared, funny, determined, moved, angry, resigned, forceful, sad, relieved, and so many other things that make me fall in love with his character all over again each time I see him *happy sigh*
Onto the Random:
- I quite liked the Then / Now presentation at the beginning.
- Same thing with what they did to the first 'a' in Supernatural'
- Sam's first calling then screaming Dean's name was a thing of beauty.
- I don't know why but the normalcy of the rescue kinda unsettled me. Like... it looked more real than usual, what with us being used to supernatural things and all, you know?
- Dean in scrubs is a good look.
- Loved the shot of Dean leaning against the wall in the corner of the room right after Sam left John's room. Like, it sounds logical that he would be there but I'd almost forgotten about him certainly following Sam around and I loved that shot.
- The impala is officially Dean now! Loved Sam's need to fix it, no matter what.
- Loved Dean thanking Sam for sticking with him and not giving up.
- Dean did make a reference to Ghost, didn't he? Or did I hear wrong? Right after he threw the glass away?
- The Oui-ja scene was of the cute. Also loved how it was filmed.
- Something was sad now was Sam helping Dean along and them both seeing the staff trying to save their dad... OH BOYS! And OH JOHN!
And I know I'm forgetting stuff but this is long enough as it is, I guess.
*happy sigh* Oh man it's so good having my show back! I love SPN because it makes me feel a gazillion emotions and it makes me react like whoa. I'll startle and gasp and go "OH PUTAIN" a lot and it never leaves me indifferent and I just adore that :-)
