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castalieI watched SPN and OH BOY!
Dude! I was kinda expecting a lot of that episode, angst wise and family wise and it so delivered!
But first, I have to wonder what exactly is the line not to cross for the brothers - belief wise. So okay, their lives are all about the paranormal. Their mother was killed by an evil thing. They kill evil things for a living - well, they're not paid but whatever. In the course of the season they fought against evil spirits, bugs from hell, scary beasts, shapeshifter, Blo- I mean, She Who Shall Not Be Named. Even Once. You name it, they fought it. They also believe in the power of talismans and other mystical objects. So it stands to reason to think that, you know, they happen to believe in all of this. The paranormal is just routine for them - yeah same ole same ole. Except they apparently have double standards because of course Sam would be afraid to talk about his visions because he wouldn't be believed.
I'm not surprised per se but it's always something that irks me a bit. It also reminds me of an episode of Lois & Clark where the Kents were doubting the reality of alternate universe or time travel - or whatever else - because it was "science-fiction" and I was like "You're talking to the son you adopted after his spaceshift crashed on Earth, which you know, makes him an ALIEN. How much more sci-fi can you get? And if he exists, why wouldn't the rest be true as well?"
And I digress but I just never understand where those characters draw the lines. "I believe in people who die and come back from the dead to kill other people with their brand new magical powers - but I don't believe you can have premonitions in your dreams because that is just crazy." Right. I guess it's better to think of fighting the paranormal than being part of it. Also, considering Dean didn't want to go, it was better not to believe Sam at all.
Anyway, this was such a minor detail that I don't even know why I'm rambling about it *blink* Because true enough, I have more interesting things to talk about like WOOBIE!DEAN.
That episode was - yeah, almost too good to be true. Dean was so upset during most of it, so sad, so worried and anxious that just - I had to rewind several scenes over and over again. It took me more than 42 minutes to watch "The Journey Home" *nods*
I couldn't get enough of seeing Dean in that state. He really broke my heart in that episode. Much more than Sam did. Thing is, to me, Sam... seemed almost detached. He was touched, sure, but not the extent of his brother and I was completely focused on Dean. It's also as if Sam kept an almost intellectual interest in everything that was happening while Dean was all for the emotional. And it's more logical since Sam had no recollection of the night or the life they had before, period. Dean had to deal with everything he'd lost without the detachment Sam could have because he remembered. And dude, he looked so scared and lost *happy sigh*
He looked lost right from the start when Sam told him they needed to go back to Kansas, which boded well for the rest of the episode because if he looked so upset just at the mere thought of going back? I couldn't imagine what it would be once he would be there. And indeed it was good *glassy eyes*
It also gave me my Favourite Scene of the whole episode - and maybe of the whole season so far - namely Dean's Phone Call scene. Oh God! It was already fantastic in the preview but faced with the reality of it? It was nothing! His face, his voice! The way it breaks as he tries not to breakdown, the way he swallows as he tries not to cry - that was such a GREAT MOMENT! And btw, JA pulled it off wonderfully, wow. It was also interesting how he made sure Sam wasn't following or seeing him. But anyway that scene was plain beautiful. And when I say I love a) Dean's vulnerability and b) the relationship between Dean and his father? That scene was like the epitome of my love for those two aspects of the show. Thank you SPN writers, thank you! *loves*
Another scene which broke my heart is when he saw his mom. Just imagine what he felt right this instant! Though as much as I loved the moment he recognised and called her, I think what moved me even more, what I found even more powerful was - ironically as there's no sound at that precise moment - when Mary left and you can see Dean mouthing "mom"... that was so sad!
I don't know whether I was surprised or not to see mommy!Winchester. I mean, I think I wasn't exactly expecting her but her presence didn't surprise me, if it makes sense. Now though, daddy!Winchester? I hadn't seen that one coming! I really thought we wouldn't see Jeffrey Dean Morgan before, like, the season finale or something - so seeing him was a wtf-wow moment :-)
When Missouri wondered why with Sam's powerful abilities he'd completely missed his father's presence, I knew the answer to that one. Well apart from the fact that it had to serve the plot, of course. So why? Because he's not Dean! Dean would have known somehow. It's like Sam is mommy's boy and Dean is daddy's. Which is why I feel kinda mean towards John because Dean needed him and he was right here - except not because he stayed hidden the whole time and he made my guy cry!Thank you, daddy!Winchester, I'll be forever grateful.
I mean, sure I loved seeing John in Missouri's house - somehow he did answer Dean's call but at the same time, that's not exactly going to help Dean, is it? I mean, he didn't call his dad to get sooper sekrit guidance from him. No, Dean called cause he needed his dad by his side and he even begged and seriously, I hope that message will haunt John for a long time to come. I do get that he has his Reasons not to tell the boys he was there - again, apart from serving the plot - but still...
And wait, speaking of the parents. Wonder what Mary is sorry for. I mean, it wasn't a sorry meant for both her children, it was clearly for Sam, so what for? Did she have powers of her own and she's sorry because she passed them on Sam and she knows it's the reason why Big Bad Thing was after him - well, he was definitely looming over Sam's crib so one has to wonder what the hell he wanted, right? - and incidentally it's also the reason why they all lost their lives - her more than the rest of them, but you know what I mean. I mean, why did she apologise exactly? What did she did or didn't do that might have resulted in all this mess. Or is it something else entirely? Yeah I know, I just have to wait and see *g*
Some Other Stuff now:
The scene in the kid's bedroom at the beginning of the episode freaked me out so much! Talk about seeing your worst nightmare becoming reality. I was riveted to the screen - scared shitless - as the closet door slowly oh so fucking slowly opened, with creaking noise or else it's no fun. Yes, that was effective. It stopped scaring me as soon as we saw what was inside but the minutes that preceded? Were bad! *shudder*
Why is everyone always picking on Dean, why? First Mr Storyteller in "Bugs" now Mrs Psychic? Stop being mean to my guy! *looks stern* Though Missouri cracked me up so okay, she can stay *g*
Speaking of Missouri picking on Dean and all. I loved Dean's face when Sam talked about them paying for the damage and loved it even more - and laughed my ass off, alright - after Missouri "volunteered" Dean for cleaning the mess and the whole "Don't cuss at me" and Dean's reaction to it. Dude, that guy has the best facial expressions ever!
How cool was that when Sam pulled a daddy!Winchester on the kid! "Take your brother outside as fast as you can. Go!" Really cool.
And now - because I might have developped a certain addiction to capping *cough* - a little picspam. And when I say "little" I'm kinda not being honest with you.
Let's start with The Angst.
Dean isn't thrilled about going back home - he sworn to himself he wouldn't ever go back there and now he doesn't have a choice. Poor sweetie *hugs*
And this is when he sees his mother.
Don't you want to hug him and never let go?
Next! My Favourite Scene.
Dad, I know I've let you messages before, I don't even know if you get 'em.
I'm with Sam and we're in Lawrence and there's something at our old house.
I dont know if it's the same thing that killed mom or not but -
I don't know what to do so, whatever you're doing if you could get here?
Please.
I need your help, Dad.
The best thing in those quotes? Is that they come straight from the episode. And it's too bad you can't hear Dean's voice at this moment because it would break your heart!
Lastly, a bit of fun - dialogue from the episode as well.
Dean: *sitting*
Missouri: Boy you put your foot on my coffee table and I'll whack you with a spoon.
Dean: I didn't do anything
Missouri: Well, you were thinking about it.
Sam: Hee Dean is going to be spanked!
Sam: FUN!
And okay so the last two lines don't really come from "The Journey Home", I kinda added them but I'm sure that's exactly what Sam was thinking!
Dude. I'm a happy fangirl *beams*
Now the episode I'm impatiently waiting for is "Faith" though is it true it'll air in January? Though wait, I think I'll love "Asylum" as well *nods to self*
Dude! I was kinda expecting a lot of that episode, angst wise and family wise and it so delivered!
But first, I have to wonder what exactly is the line not to cross for the brothers - belief wise. So okay, their lives are all about the paranormal. Their mother was killed by an evil thing. They kill evil things for a living - well, they're not paid but whatever. In the course of the season they fought against evil spirits, bugs from hell, scary beasts, shapeshifter, Blo- I mean, She Who Shall Not Be Named. Even Once. You name it, they fought it. They also believe in the power of talismans and other mystical objects. So it stands to reason to think that, you know, they happen to believe in all of this. The paranormal is just routine for them - yeah same ole same ole. Except they apparently have double standards because of course Sam would be afraid to talk about his visions because he wouldn't be believed.
I'm not surprised per se but it's always something that irks me a bit. It also reminds me of an episode of Lois & Clark where the Kents were doubting the reality of alternate universe or time travel - or whatever else - because it was "science-fiction" and I was like "You're talking to the son you adopted after his spaceshift crashed on Earth, which you know, makes him an ALIEN. How much more sci-fi can you get? And if he exists, why wouldn't the rest be true as well?"
And I digress but I just never understand where those characters draw the lines. "I believe in people who die and come back from the dead to kill other people with their brand new magical powers - but I don't believe you can have premonitions in your dreams because that is just crazy." Right. I guess it's better to think of fighting the paranormal than being part of it. Also, considering Dean didn't want to go, it was better not to believe Sam at all.
Anyway, this was such a minor detail that I don't even know why I'm rambling about it *blink* Because true enough, I have more interesting things to talk about like WOOBIE!DEAN.
That episode was - yeah, almost too good to be true. Dean was so upset during most of it, so sad, so worried and anxious that just - I had to rewind several scenes over and over again. It took me more than 42 minutes to watch "The Journey Home" *nods*
I couldn't get enough of seeing Dean in that state. He really broke my heart in that episode. Much more than Sam did. Thing is, to me, Sam... seemed almost detached. He was touched, sure, but not the extent of his brother and I was completely focused on Dean. It's also as if Sam kept an almost intellectual interest in everything that was happening while Dean was all for the emotional. And it's more logical since Sam had no recollection of the night or the life they had before, period. Dean had to deal with everything he'd lost without the detachment Sam could have because he remembered. And dude, he looked so scared and lost *happy sigh*
He looked lost right from the start when Sam told him they needed to go back to Kansas, which boded well for the rest of the episode because if he looked so upset just at the mere thought of going back? I couldn't imagine what it would be once he would be there. And indeed it was good *glassy eyes*
It also gave me my Favourite Scene of the whole episode - and maybe of the whole season so far - namely Dean's Phone Call scene. Oh God! It was already fantastic in the preview but faced with the reality of it? It was nothing! His face, his voice! The way it breaks as he tries not to breakdown, the way he swallows as he tries not to cry - that was such a GREAT MOMENT! And btw, JA pulled it off wonderfully, wow. It was also interesting how he made sure Sam wasn't following or seeing him. But anyway that scene was plain beautiful. And when I say I love a) Dean's vulnerability and b) the relationship between Dean and his father? That scene was like the epitome of my love for those two aspects of the show. Thank you SPN writers, thank you! *loves*
Another scene which broke my heart is when he saw his mom. Just imagine what he felt right this instant! Though as much as I loved the moment he recognised and called her, I think what moved me even more, what I found even more powerful was - ironically as there's no sound at that precise moment - when Mary left and you can see Dean mouthing "mom"... that was so sad!
I don't know whether I was surprised or not to see mommy!Winchester. I mean, I think I wasn't exactly expecting her but her presence didn't surprise me, if it makes sense. Now though, daddy!Winchester? I hadn't seen that one coming! I really thought we wouldn't see Jeffrey Dean Morgan before, like, the season finale or something - so seeing him was a wtf-wow moment :-)
When Missouri wondered why with Sam's powerful abilities he'd completely missed his father's presence, I knew the answer to that one. Well apart from the fact that it had to serve the plot, of course. So why? Because he's not Dean! Dean would have known somehow. It's like Sam is mommy's boy and Dean is daddy's. Which is why I feel kinda mean towards John because Dean needed him and he was right here - except not because he stayed hidden the whole time and he made my guy cry!
I mean, sure I loved seeing John in Missouri's house - somehow he did answer Dean's call but at the same time, that's not exactly going to help Dean, is it? I mean, he didn't call his dad to get sooper sekrit guidance from him. No, Dean called cause he needed his dad by his side and he even begged and seriously, I hope that message will haunt John for a long time to come. I do get that he has his Reasons not to tell the boys he was there - again, apart from serving the plot - but still...
And wait, speaking of the parents. Wonder what Mary is sorry for. I mean, it wasn't a sorry meant for both her children, it was clearly for Sam, so what for? Did she have powers of her own and she's sorry because she passed them on Sam and she knows it's the reason why Big Bad Thing was after him - well, he was definitely looming over Sam's crib so one has to wonder what the hell he wanted, right? - and incidentally it's also the reason why they all lost their lives - her more than the rest of them, but you know what I mean. I mean, why did she apologise exactly? What did she did or didn't do that might have resulted in all this mess. Or is it something else entirely? Yeah I know, I just have to wait and see *g*
Some Other Stuff now:
And now - because I might have developped a certain addiction to capping *cough* - a little picspam. And when I say "little" I'm kinda not being honest with you.
Let's start with The Angst.
Dean isn't thrilled about going back home - he sworn to himself he wouldn't ever go back there and now he doesn't have a choice. Poor sweetie *hugs*
And this is when he sees his mother.
Don't you want to hug him and never let go?
Next! My Favourite Scene.
Dad, I know I've let you messages before, I don't even know if you get 'em.
I'm with Sam and we're in Lawrence and there's something at our old house.
I dont know if it's the same thing that killed mom or not but -
I don't know what to do so, whatever you're doing if you could get here?
Please.
I need your help, Dad.
The best thing in those quotes? Is that they come straight from the episode. And it's too bad you can't hear Dean's voice at this moment because it would break your heart!
Lastly, a bit of fun - dialogue from the episode as well.
Dean: *sitting*
Missouri: Boy you put your foot on my coffee table and I'll whack you with a spoon.
Dean: I didn't do anything
Missouri: Well, you were thinking about it.
Sam: Hee Dean is going to be spanked!
Sam: FUN!
And okay so the last two lines don't really come from "The Journey Home", I kinda added them but I'm sure that's exactly what Sam was thinking!
Dude. I'm a happy fangirl *beams*
Now the episode I'm impatiently waiting for is "Faith" though is it true it'll air in January? Though wait, I think I'll love "Asylum" as well *nods to self*
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Date: 2005-11-16 10:59 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-11-16 11:09 pm (UTC)NO WAY! dude - the show *I* was watching? TOTALLY had them in there! *g*
So glad you're capping this as well! thank you!!
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Date: 2005-11-16 11:24 pm (UTC)Which brings us back to enjoying your picspam!
It's all good!!!
And btw, I didn't feel that Sam hesitated in telling Dean about his visions because of any lack of belief in visions per se, by either of them. I think it's clear that whole family believes in all the, well, supernatural stuff, but it's another thing entirely to suddenly realize you've got some of the supernatural in yourself as well, especially if there had never been any signs of such weirdness in you before.
I don't think either Sam or Dean disbelieve it-- they're just kinda freaked out by such an unexpected occurrance so close to home (so to speak).
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Date: 2005-11-16 11:55 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-11-17 01:23 am (UTC)Teary-eyed!Dean is just waay powerful. I mean, talk about rip your heart out. I love this episode SO much.
But yes! "Faith"! Are there links? I'm so intrigued! I know I'm looking forward to "Asylum" (I LOVE whomped anyone in this show, lol). Help an addict out here! :D
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Date: 2005-11-17 06:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-11-17 01:24 pm (UTC)This episode is my favourite so far. Definitely *nods
As for "Faith", I'm waiting impatiently to see it since I caught that little synopsis: "Dean is sick and they go to a faith healer. Dean only believes in what he sees, and Sam believes in God (of some sort)" as succinct and kinda badly told it can be lol
The poster then makes the surprising "There isn't that much character/story arc stuff in the sides" note following the summary but seeing as the episode seems to be all about Dean and Sam, therefore all about character arc - somewhat - I'm thinking they meant it wouldn't be about strangers and the regular kill-an-evil-spirit storyline, which is just great, imho because I love nothing more than the brothers, thanks :-)
In any case, we'll see *g*
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Date: 2005-11-17 01:26 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-11-17 01:27 pm (UTC)Hey glad to be of service *g*
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Date: 2005-11-17 01:29 pm (UTC)And JA is just great! I love him, he makes Dean so great... really a character I want to follow, know what I mean? Well yeah, you do lol
I don't think either Sam or Dean disbelieve it-- they're just kinda freaked out by such an unexpected occurrance so close to home (so to speak).
That's how you saw it? I have to say I like your perception better than mine :-)
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Date: 2005-11-17 01:29 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-11-17 01:31 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-11-17 01:52 pm (UTC)And now for the squeeing and agreeing with everything you say.
I'm not surprised per se but it's always something that irks me a bit. It also reminds me of an episode of Lois & Clark where the Kents were doubting the reality of alternate universe or time travel - or whatever else - because it was "science-fiction" and I was like "You're talking to the son you adopted after his spaceshift crashed on Earth, which you know, makes him an ALIEN. How much more sci-fi can you get? And if he exists, why wouldn't the rest be true as well?"
OMG yes! That is the exact same reaction I have to moments like this. Whenever someone pulls shit like that, I just wanna kick them in the face.
I couldn't get enough of seeing Dean in that state. He really broke my heart in that episode. Much more than Sam did.
I just kinda ignored Sam. I didn't mean to but with Dean in that state? It's a wonder I could follow the story at all.
It also gave me my Favourite Scene of the whole episode - and maybe of the whole season so far - namely Dean's Phone Call scene.
OMG WOOBIE!DEAN!!!!! All scared and lost and with a breaking voice and checking Sam didn't see him and...*dies*
It truly was the best scene of the season.
when Mary left and you can see Dean mouthing "mom"... that was so sad!
OMG, I didn't even catch that! Must go and rewatch. Yes, it's a chore, I know. *g*
Which is why I feel kinda mean towards John because Dean needed him and he was right here - except not because he stayed hidden the whole time and he made my guy cry!
Thank you, daddy!Winchester, I'll be forever grateful.He deserves to be kicked in the head as well! Leaving Dean to be all scared like that.
Thank you!Wonder what Mary is sorry for.
Me too! Also, when did this stop being a completely shallow show?
And I do love you when you're in a picspaming mode. :)
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Date: 2005-11-17 04:07 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-11-17 05:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-11-17 06:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-11-18 01:37 pm (UTC)You're such a doll, thanks :-) Also it makes me smile cause I love your reviews in the sense that you go straight to the point and I just.can't.do that. I can't do short. So I'm quite impressed each time when I read your reviews lol
I'm not the only one who kinda, yeah, ignored Sam, then? I feel better now *eg*
Woobie!Dean is SO the best. And JA is so great at showing us angst, I mean, wow! Also re: woobie!Dean, considering how his father seems to be a pro at angst, no wonder the son is so good at it too lol
when did this stop being a completely shallow show?
Dude! I have NO idea *blink*
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Date: 2005-11-18 01:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-11-18 03:45 pm (UTC)First of all... *flails* Such a wonderful ep! And it was good, too, which considering how this show sometimes deals with consistency and coherency was a wonderful thing to see. *nods* No funny bits, no unexplained fast forwarding through nights, etc... if they could keep it up like that from now on it would nice.
Second, I love those boys. They're really very decent actors, that's for sure. Dean's facial expressions as you said are so damn good! He made me go all misty more than once. He, like, had a constant tear at the corner of his eye, poor boy. *pets Dean*
I also got really worked up over how everybody keeps being mean to him. The boy's been through hell and back, he saves lives for a living, he's trying not to break under the pressure of having lost his dad, etc. Sure, he's cocky, but I find this constant harassing of the boy annoying. *gets annoyed on Dean's behalf* Seems like I'm rather protective of him. I always tend to root for the underdog. I was particularly annoyed at Missouri for saying that he wasn't "the sharpest tool in the box". OMG, how dare she! Bitch! Not to mention that considering some of Dean's issues with his brother, that must have stung! *beats Missouri upside the head with her own spoon* Back off woman! Grrrrrr...
*breathes*
Sorry. Like I said, I'm feeling very protective of the boy. *pets him*
The one thing I don't agree with you is your take on why Sam didn't say anything about his visions. I really don't think that he kept it quiet until now because he was worried Dean wouldn't believe him. If you think back to the episode about she-who-must-not-be-named, Sam has been feeling guilty about those visions. There he'd been, in his quiet life with his girlfriend and wham, premonitory nightmares. Only at the time, he probably didn't know that that was what they were, he must have put them down to stress, down to the fact that he was settling in a sort of family life which would have brought back issues and worries about what had happened to his family back then. It's only after that he realized they'd been premonitory visions. I think the reason he didn't say anything was more because he was certain he'd be believed and so felt like his guilt was justified. If those were visions, which is not something either Dean nor Sam would have been able to dismiss as irrational given their life, then he truly was guilty for not having acted upon them.
I think the reason he opens up about them here is because now that he realizes they might not just be visions tied to himself and Jessica, now that he has a chance to do something about them, sort of pay back on the guilt, then he has to talk about them. I mean, he doesn't really put up much of a fight when Dean asks to know more about why they have to go, he only says he can't talk about them once, probably out of habit, but spills the beans readily just after.
As for Dean, he doesn't say he doesn't believe Sam, he just says that it's a shock. And it would be. It's one thing to deal with paranormal evil things daily, it's another when your own brother tells you he's... well, not quite normal. He's one of the things that belong with what they've been fighting all of their lives, even if he's not evil. It's unsettling enough as it is, but put that with the fact that sam wants to go back where Dean swore he never would...
Basically, what I'm saying is that I saw no disbelief on either Dean's or Sam's part, quite the opposite considering what Sam was sprining on Dean, lol. Just thought I'd share my musings... :-)
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Date: 2005-11-18 04:11 pm (UTC)Still traumatised by that part, aren't you? I know the feeling *nods*
This picking-on-Dean doesn't amuse me either. I mean, no, technically it is funny in the sense that it's supposedly its purpose - it's the comic relief moments TPTB gives their audience, it's obvious but at the same time - on Dean's behalf, it's not funny at all.
Like you said, Dean is under a lot of pressure and he's doing everything he can to hold it together, to do the right thing and who are those people, anyway? So I do get the purpose - and I loved Missouri even though some people thought she was just Too Much and too much the cliché - but when everything has been said and done, it kinda ring mean spirited if you consider Dean and his feelings.
The "not the sharpest crayon in the box" didn't amuse at all though - not even a second - because I have to say insulting someone's intelligence is something I find too offensive and just plain mean.
Now the revelation *g* I agree that part of the problem lies with the fact that - like I said myself - it's one thing to fight the paranormal, it's another to realise you're part of it. Or have your brother be part of it. So yeah, talk about a shock. And true enough, Sam felt a lot of guilt which had to do with his not wanting to tell Dean about it - I pretty much ignored that part, I realised *cough*
But I can't shake the feeling that there was still part of disbelief on Dean's part - not that I'm implying you tried to convince me otherwise, btw *g* I think he might not want to believe Sam, yes, and it's certainly upsetting but the result is the same for me. It's like, there's Them and there's Us and that just can't happen to us, I don't believe you could have premonitions, sorry.
And for instance when the brothers leave the house right after they talked with... damn, what was her name again? Jenny? Yeah anyway The Mom - Sam mentions that something weird is happening and Dean is like "you mean apart from the fact that your psycho dreams turn out to be real"? And sure, technically it's said in jest - like pure Dean talk - but at the same time, I saw it as the restul of Dean humouring his brother by coming back home and suddenly realising that yes, Sam was right all along and the dreams were true visions. If it makes sense *g*
Just thought I'd share my musings... :-)
And I love it when you do :-)
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Date: 2005-11-18 04:36 pm (UTC)Maybe. I don't know, I think it was probably more reluctance than actual disbelief, you know? I think if there was any disbelief, it was more that he didn't want to believe than because it sounded far-fetched to him.
Also, I think his reluctance might come from the fact that if Sam has supernatural abilities, then it changes everything. Like you also pointed out with what happens with their mom's spirit, what if there was a reason for what happened to their mom inherent to who Sam is rather than to the house, the history, the pure evilness of what took their mother, etc? Wouldn't that freak you out if you found out that things are less black and white and maybe more complicated and with a shade of grey in there?
I think Dean is comfortable with his mission, his explanation and his search for a truth he probably believes lies in "there was something evil in our house and it took mom and I need to find it so I can kill it."
Think about their father, for example. Why is he so beaten up over something he's been looking for for years? Why is he suddenly feeling like he can't be with them no matter how much he wants to, not until he's learned the "truth"? I think that Sam's abilities are going to play a much more important part in casting light on what happened to his mother than either Dean or his father ever wanted to know about. I think daddy Winchester knows about Sam's abilities or part of what was really behind the attack on his wife, that he found out and is trying to deal with that.
I mean, they've been on this hunt, this mission for years. Kill as many evil things as possible in the hope one of them will turn out to be the thing that killed their mom. What if suddenly they find out that they're not the ones hunting but that their fate is intrinsically linked to that of the thing that took their mom? And I think in a way, Dean senses that, senses that Sam's abilities might mean a complete turn in their beliefs and the way they go about looking at what happened to them all those years ago. So to me, his reluctance to believe his brother is not so far-fetched or annoying or irrational, you know? Especially since he does finally readily follow him home, follow his instincts and doesn't really put up a fight at all.
And whoa, where the heck did all these theories and musings come from? I haven't discussed or tried to analyze a show like that since the time when I watched the X-Files (and I don't think Supernatural is quite on the same level as the X-files, lol). I think it's your influence. You're being a bad influence on me! ;-)
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Date: 2005-11-19 07:23 pm (UTC)You know, it's weird, but I kind of liked it. I think she was almost... mothering him. She could tell he needed that kind of treatment (not mean, just... do your chores, don't put your feet on the table, etc.) -- that he'd had it long enought to notice the lack of it, while Sam... he doesn't know what he's missing, only that something was never there.
Or not. It was just something that ocurred to me after re-watching the episode a billion-jillion times. ;)
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Date: 2005-11-20 05:54 am (UTC)Or not. It was just something that ocurred to me after re-watching the episode a billion-jillion times. ;)
Well that's a nice view of these scenes, in any case ;-) And come to think of it, it's maybe closer to what the audience was supposed to see from them, too *nods*