RL musing and squee and fannish rambling.

[castalie]

I went to my grandfather's house yesterday afternoon with my sister. I haven't been there since the 15th and it did feel... so very odd. We did some gardening and we also made ourselves better by putting some things back to where they're supposed to be. Like, we put the house as it was before his illness - actually, some things are now as they were before my grandmother's illness and wow, it felt so good. It was very... cleansing, I think - or healing? We also found a box full of pictures - half of them we've never seen. There were letters inside as well - one of them from 1927 - and talk about a treasure! Some of those pics go back to 1938, 1940, 1941 and it felt so weird because we were looking at them and thinking, god, those pics were taken during the war. It was really moving. So anyway, I didn't feel as down as I thought I would coming back to the house. Though I think it'll take some time to get used to closing everything each time we leave.

Then we went to the mall and I bought my tickets for LONDON! Yes! So er, I think I only mentioned it once in my journal or something but back in July the wonderful yami_tai invited me to London! For a looong weekend! I kept mostly silent about it because I wasn't sure I would be able to go due to my grandfather's situation but now, well, now things changed so, ironically, I could really start getting excited about it. As a result I bought the tickets. So it's official, if everything goes according to plan, I should be in London from 25 Nov to 28 Nov *beams* It'll be my first time in England. I can't wait! Now I just have to hope that nothing will come between me and my weekend there *fingers crossed* I know I've thanked you over and over again Tai, but THANK YOU again *loves*

Now onto the fannish - I finally watched "Skin" [Supernatural 1x06] last night.

I have to say I wasn't really freaked out by this episode. Now, after "Bloody Mary" it's not that surprising. Thing is, I thought the plot was sometimes, I don't know, all over the place? There were moments when I was like "Okay, how did he arrive here?" But it's okay because shapeshifter!Dean totally made up for everything.

As soon as he mentioned Dean's issues with Sam, I knew I was in for a treat. And I was, I so was! Also, the speech he made? I totally knew it was coming. I'm happy they're addressing the tension and conflicts that might exist between the brothers. Also, I don't remember whether it was implied that Shapeshifter guy had lied to torment Sam but if it was, I don't believe it for a second. So anyway, I loved that scene - it's the kind of scene I've been dreaming of since the beginning - the resentment, the angst, the pain... Dean angsts well - cause even though it wasn't really him, it was still his thoughts - it works for me. Also, I love how Dean seems to be the one who's really suffering from their dad's disappearance. I mean, sure, Dean was the one who stayed with their dad so it stands to reason that it would affect him more but still...

Also my loving Dean like I do keeps on surprising me a bit. Technically, neither Dean nor Sam are the kind of character I'm drawn to. They're too much the Tough Guys, too much the Alpha Males for me and I'm just not attracted to that kind of character - yet I love Dean and think Sam is cool. But if I love Dean, it's thanks to the chinks in his armour. Otherwise, I would lose interest, I think. Cocky Tough Heroes bore me, I need more. So it's nice that Dean has Issues all around because it keeps the love strong - which is why I loved the first scene between shapeshifter!Dean and Sam so much.

Back to "Skin" now, so wait! Dean Winchester is now officially dead? It was 2.00 am when I watched the episode and I realise I might have lost my concentration near the end so I'm not even sure I remember what they said. He was officially blamed for the murder? And it doesn't worry the brothers more than that? And if Dean is officially dead and all, I wonder what daddy!Winchester is going to think if he hears about it. I mean, assuming he's following what his boys are doing, I wonder how he'd take the news that his son is dead. Dude, I really need to watch that bit again *blink*

Not my favourite episode but still has one of my favourite scenes so far - so all in all, not bad at all :-)

Comments

[cygny.livejournal.com]

I so thought of you during that scene between shapeshifter!Dean and Sam :D

Yay for a trip to London! I've been wanting to go for ages now and just don't get around to it. Hopefully next year :P

I'm glad the trip to your grandparents' house went as ok as one can expect in this situation. Old pictures are just such a great find, I love to look at pictures in general, but old ones really have this magic about them :)

[castalie.livejournal.com]

I so thought of you during that scene between shapeshifter!Dean and Sam :D

My rambling is famous! lol But seriously when I saw that scene? I had this huge grin on my face because hey, some of the things Dean said was almost verbatim in my entry! I totally got Dean's number. Now, if only I could write him and all...

I hope you'll get to go. I'm quite excited about the trip - it's been several years since I left France... or Choisy for that matter lol

Magic is the word, I'm so glad we found them ;-)

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Okay, so I lied. I sneaked a look at the flist and had to comment.

First, LONDON! You'll have so much fun, I'm so happy for you!

Second. IloveDeansomuch! Sorry, I just had to get that out *g* I totally agree with what you said, he is very much alpha male but the angst makes him so lovely to watch. The more I see of him and the more his character is explored the more I like him. (That sentence brought to you by the word more *g* )

Skin wasn't my favourite episode either, though shirtless Dean was very nice, but man, some of the scenes were so icky.

From what I understood Dean is officially dead and it surprised me how unconcerned they were about that. Surely it'll impact on their work somehow along the line?

[castalie.livejournal.com]

The lure of lj was too strong, uh? Why am I not surprised? lol

Yes LONDON! I can't wait omg!

I'm quite happy with the last episodes because they gave us some nice glimpses into Dean's psyche and since he's all fucked, well I certainly enjoyed the trip *eg*

Surely it'll impact on their work somehow along the line?

Tell me about it! I'm just worried they won't ever mention that "little detail"...

[crazybutsound]

Yay! You watched it so I can ask my technical question!

I know it's silly but I got really bzuh over one scene. Remember close to the end, when shapeshifter!Dean and sam are in the girl's house, S!Dean ties up Sam by the sofa then turns to the kitchen to grab a knife all menacing like. When the camera then spans back to Sam, he's on his back, on the floor by the pool table all tiedup and S!Dean is looking for a knife in Dean's bag. WTF? Was that the worst realized ever or what????

Also, yeah, that IS what I understood, that Dean is now officially dead which is kinda bound to be a problem yet doesn't seem to upset them one bit. Weird boys.

Other than that, yeah, I thought it mostly sucked except for the scenes between S!Dean and Sam and when they're addressing the tension and all. I also loved the subtle changes in Dean's personality and way of playing which tipped us to the fact he wasn't really Dean each time. I thought the boy was doing a pretty good acting job there. Still not up to what Bloody Mary had accomplished the week before, but oh well. I think I'm into the show too much to get too annoyed at the occasional suckage. Which for me? Is quite an accomplishment, lol.

[crazybutsound]

Also, heeeeeee! London! I'm so glad for you darling! You will undoubtedly have the time of your life. :-) And given everything, you certainly deserve that treat. :-)

[castalie.livejournal.com]

I certainly plan on having the time of my life *beams* And yeah, it'll be a wonderful break *g*

[castalie.livejournal.com]

Oh that scene, I wondered as well! Then I tried to tell myself it was because they wanted to hint that S!Dean had roughened Sam up a little hence the change of position and room and all but the knife thing totally destroyed the thought - that and the fact Sam was still in the quasi pristine condition he was when it all began. And alright, pristine isn't accurate at all, but I'm just trying to make a point lol

When watching the episode, it felt as if they'd lost some sequences now and then.

And I second that, S!Dean and the tension totally saved the episode.

Which for me? Is quite an accomplishment, lol.

Quite an accomplishment, alright! *is impressed*

London! Londonlondonlondon!

[babycakesin.livejournal.com]

YOU'RE GOING TO LONDOOOOON!!! *bounces* *squee* *bounces* you're going to LONDON! slash city! OMG I'm so happy for you!!! *rests because, hey, bouncing around is pretty tiring* lol are you going to do your Christmas shopping over there? lol

Re: London! Londonlondonlondon!

[castalie.livejournal.com]

YES LONDON *bounces* I still can't believe it actually lol But I have the tickets and all!

are you going to do your Christmas shopping over there? lol

Dude, don't tempt me! lol But I guess I'll buy at least a bauble or something *g*

Re: London! Londonlondonlondon!

[babycakesin.livejournal.com]

buybuybuybuy!!! Christmas shopping in London! (says the girl who hates shopping *giggles*)

I'm so happy for you! something to look forward to in November (it is so rare lol) What are your plans over there? *settles to listen*

Re: London! Londonlondonlondon!

[castalie.livejournal.com]

You'll have to tell me what you'd like me to get you - just, keep it simple as I'm not exactly rich right now lol

To be fair, I always look forward to November because by November, Christmas is already in the air and it the weather is crispy and it sometimes smells of snow already and - yeah, love winter, woohoo!

Tai already planned some things but I need to start seriously thinking of whatI want to do and visit - I didn't feel like doing so before since I seriously thought I wouldn't go at one point...

Re: London! Londonlondonlondon!

[babycakesin.livejournal.com]

lol - damn, I'll have to think about it *giggles*

you're going to LONDON!

Re: London! Londonlondonlondon!

[castalie.livejournal.com]

LONDON OMG!

[sockich.livejournal.com]

We also found a box full of pictures - half of them we've never seen. There were letters inside as well - one of them from 1927 - and talk about a treasure! Some of those pics go back to 1938, 1940, 1941 and it felt so weird because we were looking at them and thinking, god, those pics were taken during the war.

That sounds amazing. I have a thing for old pictures/letters/anything that gives you a glimpse of a persons life in the past, and the fact that these were your grandfathers', I can only imagine how moving it must have been for you.

Then we went to the mall and I bought my tickets for LONDON!

Oh, London! You're going to London! I love London, I'm so happy for you! You're gonna have so much fun!

And Supernatural? I'm totally watching it tomorrow as a celebration because I shall be done with my French test and that shall deserve a celebration. *g*

And again, London! Yay!

[castalie.livejournal.com]

Amazing is right - and there were pictures of the whole family. Both my grandparents when they were young, their siblings, then pics of my mom, godfather and gazillion cousins and aunts when they were kids... a beautiful treasure *g*

I can't wait to be here! I'll have the time of my life eeek!

Hail to French tests that are over and to Supernatural watching *g*

[moimoietmoi.livejournal.com]

You're going to London?! Lucky you! I love this city!

And if Dean is officially dead and all, I wonder what daddy!Winchester is going to think if he hears about it. I mean, assuming he's following what his boys are doing, I wonder how he'd take the news that his son is dead.
It reminds me of this fic I've read on one of the Supernatural fic communities, where Dean gets a phonecall from his father after Skin. I haven't managed to find it again! It was a good gen fic and I thought it went really well with the series.

[castalie.livejournal.com]

Yes I'm going to London! Well, hopefully lol I've never been there but I only had positive reviews about it, I'm so excited!

If you find the fic again, let me know? I'd love to read that story.

[french-hobbit.livejournal.com]

I love old pictures, i can spend hours with these old boxes full with black and whites...

And London! this will be a fine long week end for you, I think *g*

[castalie.livejournal.com]

We did spent hours going through them... it was wonderful.

And London! this will be a fine long week end for you, I think

I think so too *bounces*

[aswanargent.livejournal.com]

First, I love the story about you and your sister going back to your grandfather's house and what you did and found there. These are going to be good memories, and you can never have too many of those.

Second, LONDON!!! Lucky, lucky you!!! But I'm not jealous (no really, msdaccxx has promised to tell me all about the T.E. Lawrence exhibit when she goes to see it, and that will be just have to be enough). But seriously, London in time to do your Christmas shopping. How wonderful. And you deserve a treat. :-)

[castalie.livejournal.com]

I'll try to send as many cards from London as possible *g* I can't wait!

[yami-tai.livejournal.com]

I can't wait for London, I really can't! I'm so excited about seeing you again ^_________^! Also I don't think you will have to wait when you arrive because I'm pretty sure I can make it to Waterloo by then *fingers crossed*!

I really enjoyed Skin because of the shapeshifter sharing the issues that Dean has with his brother. I'm sure you already know this, but I'm the opposite to you as I generally like the alpha male types, but I like them even more if they show weakness every once in a while ^_^!

[castalie.livejournal.com]

Your icon is so gorgeous, wow *glassy eyes*

And I know, I can't wait either! And really? That would be awesome actually since hey, it'll be my very first time and I'm afraid I could get lost... or something lol No it's okay, I'll be okay but if you do make it to Waterloo when I arrive, well it'll be even better *fingers crossed too*

Yes I know that alpha males are more your types lol