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May. 1st, 2012 10:48 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
castalieI spent the weekend in Normandie with the parental unit and Cokie and this is the kind of view I had. We did have a bit of sun every now and then though, between you and me, the sea looks gorgeous no matter what weather it is: 
Then yesterday, back at work, that's what I was seeing from my office:
Not exactly the same thing, right? It was even more annoying that when I left Normandie Sunday night, I had to say goodbye to Cookie and my parents who were lucky enough not to work on Monday. But the exam proctoring I had to do yesterday went well, so there is that.
Cookie is still there, as a matter of fact, but I'm not jealous anymore because today is the First of May, which means it's bank holiday, which means! Reading fic in bed all morning. At least, that's how I translated it :-p I'll get out of bed, eventually. When, no, I will get out of bed because I'm meeting with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
moimoietmoi in the afternoon, so. In the meantime it's Blaine fic followed with more Blaine fic *stretches lazily*
Actually I shouldn't stretch too much because I have this little prick sensation on my left shoulder and it feels like my back could act up at any time. I think I'm a bit stressed out at the moment. Nothing big at all, but I've reached that stage when I have a gazillion things to do for school and I feel like I'll never get them all done because 24 hours aren't just enough for work and school. I'm not convinced I'll be able to complete the whole thing this year while at the same time really wanting to finish it and defend on September. Also, now is the time to send out applications for next year and I have no idea what I want to do. Can I actually see myself doing a PhD?? If I do that, I'll need to do something that relates to work, otherwise it'll be... not a waste of time but it won't be as productive as it should be. Or do I try for another Masters next year and find a program that is 100% related to my job and then maybe get a PhD following that program. Then again, even if I send out applications or go for a PhD, doesn't even mean I'll be accepted, anyway. Or do I just stop?
I keep telling myself it's ridiculous to get even a little bit worked up about things that I don't need as such, as I already have a job and I have this grown-up life that is fine as it is and, seriously, if that's the kind of things I "worry" about then I'm damn lucky, I know that, but what if? What if those potential degrees open new doors in a few years? I'm not old, by any means, but I'm not twenty either. I guess it feels like I'm too old to make the wrong decisions now? Something like that.
Anyway, that's where I am at the moment ;-) I think I'll post this and go back to reading about Blaine being cute and full of angst and having Kurt fix him. There!
Though wait, as is the custom in France on the First of May, I'm offering you a bunch of lilies of the valley, it'll bring you luck :-)
Then yesterday, back at work, that's what I was seeing from my office:Not exactly the same thing, right? It was even more annoying that when I left Normandie Sunday night, I had to say goodbye to Cookie and my parents who were lucky enough not to work on Monday. But the exam proctoring I had to do yesterday went well, so there is that.
Cookie is still there, as a matter of fact, but I'm not jealous anymore because today is the First of May, which means it's bank holiday, which means! Reading fic in bed all morning. At least, that's how I translated it :-p I'll get out of bed, eventually. When, no, I will get out of bed because I'm meeting with
moimoietmoi in the afternoon, so. In the meantime it's Blaine fic followed with more Blaine fic *stretches lazily*Actually I shouldn't stretch too much because I have this little prick sensation on my left shoulder and it feels like my back could act up at any time. I think I'm a bit stressed out at the moment. Nothing big at all, but I've reached that stage when I have a gazillion things to do for school and I feel like I'll never get them all done because 24 hours aren't just enough for work and school. I'm not convinced I'll be able to complete the whole thing this year while at the same time really wanting to finish it and defend on September. Also, now is the time to send out applications for next year and I have no idea what I want to do. Can I actually see myself doing a PhD?? If I do that, I'll need to do something that relates to work, otherwise it'll be... not a waste of time but it won't be as productive as it should be. Or do I try for another Masters next year and find a program that is 100% related to my job and then maybe get a PhD following that program. Then again, even if I send out applications or go for a PhD, doesn't even mean I'll be accepted, anyway. Or do I just stop?
I keep telling myself it's ridiculous to get even a little bit worked up about things that I don't need as such, as I already have a job and I have this grown-up life that is fine as it is and, seriously, if that's the kind of things I "worry" about then I'm damn lucky, I know that, but what if? What if those potential degrees open new doors in a few years? I'm not old, by any means, but I'm not twenty either. I guess it feels like I'm too old to make the wrong decisions now? Something like that.
Anyway, that's where I am at the moment ;-) I think I'll post this and go back to reading about Blaine being cute and full of angst and having Kurt fix him. There!
Though wait, as is the custom in France on the First of May, I'm offering you a bunch of lilies of the valley, it'll bring you luck :-)
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Date: 2012-05-01 09:21 am (UTC)today is the First of May, which means it's bank holiday
Isn't it the best? :D
And whatever decision you do end up making about school, I wish you all the best with it. Now go have a very relaxing day.
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Date: 2012-05-08 05:56 pm (UTC)Thank you :-)
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Date: 2012-05-01 01:22 pm (UTC)And look at you - with all your grown-up decisions to make. *G* I've no advise to offer of course, not being a grown-up myself. But - look at you! *smooch*
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Date: 2012-05-08 05:57 pm (UTC)Being a grown-up is totally overrated, really *sigh*
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Date: 2012-05-01 06:47 pm (UTC)Wow - that first photo is amazing! So beautiful.
And thank you for the Lily of the Valley - I grow loads in my garden, but they're not in flower yet... Happy May 1st to you too ♥
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Date: 2012-05-08 05:58 pm (UTC)You're very welcome :-)
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Date: 2012-05-02 08:31 am (UTC)As for school. I don't have any actual concrete advice as I've never been there. But, I do remember you getting so stressed about going back to school at all and not telling people at first and look how that's ended up. You've done so amazingly well, it's why I will always be confident that you'll find the path that's right for you.
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Date: 2012-05-08 06:01 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-05-12 12:18 pm (UTC)One step at a time sounds perfect to me.