I miss SPN already *pout*
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castalieRemember when I recc'ed The Ice is Thin SPN post-finale fic? Well lookit there's a follow-up *points right* Underneath my Lucid Skin and it hurts as good as the previous fic does. It's powerful and heartbreaking, and I'm completely in love with those two stories!
And seriously - silent!Dean? Is so one of my kinks. Silent!character - due to trauma or whatever - is in general but silent!Dean is definitely at the top of the list. Also, I adore the fact that John's diary actually mentions that kind of thing. How little!Dean didn't talk for a while. And see, those diaries, you can see them as canon pieces or not. It was never mentioned in the show per se, but it's supposedly in the diary Johns owns, so, really, it's up to you to decide what to do with that piece of information. And the point isn't whether it is canon or not, the point is whether you want it to be. Life is complicated enough, at least this isn't. If you want it, you take it, if you don't, you leave it. The End. And I know I kinda see it as a canon source. As in, when I look at Dean, I integrate the whole silence into his past and what makes him what he is now - because it's too beautifully angsty for me not to take into account.
Speaking of SPN, I watched "Devil's Trap" again yesterday - needed to reward myself for sticking with Finkielkraut, see? - and each time I see it, it's like the first time. It doesn't matter that I know that John is, in fact, not!John, each time Dean pulls the colt to him and he's trying so hard not to back down and Sam is trying to understand what is going on, I want to cry. I only 'relax' - I use the term loosely, btw - when not!John finally reveals himself because at least the mental torture is over. Well, mental torture part 1, that is.
Also, not!John poisoning Dean's mind and attacking him on his insecurities won't ever NOT be deliciously painful. And apparently, I won't ever not feel my heart race when not!John is bleeding Dean and Dean is pleading with his father. Just - God, that scene... it's so fucking good I could spend a hundred years watching it, and I'd still feel the same emotions. Finally, the rear-view mirror scene won't ever stop being intense and beautiful.
Something else I don't think I'll ever get tired of is JDM's performance when he's being not!John. He's so fucking awesome! I wish I'd felt the same way towards Meg, it would have been nice, but at least JDM totally made up for it. His voice, his postures... the way he leans toward Dean... it's so intimate and so wrong and so brilliant. Big Baddie is toying with the boys and he's obviously having the time of his life and it shows and I JUST LOVE THE WHOLE SCENE TO PIECES. The End.
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tallisen asked her flist to make a list of all SPN episodes, from favourite to least favourite and I would need to watch them all again to be able to choose - oh the chore! *rolls eyes* - but off the top of my head, I think the top of the list would look like this:
1. The Journey Home
2. Devil's Trap
3. Faith
Then it would get a bit complicated because between "Asylum", "Salvation", "Something Wicked" and "Dead Man's Blood" I would need to, like, torture myself into picking an order. Though wait, the least favourite episode? Would be "Wendigo".
And seriously - silent!Dean? Is so one of my kinks. Silent!character - due to trauma or whatever - is in general but silent!Dean is definitely at the top of the list. Also, I adore the fact that John's diary actually mentions that kind of thing. How little!Dean didn't talk for a while. And see, those diaries, you can see them as canon pieces or not. It was never mentioned in the show per se, but it's supposedly in the diary Johns owns, so, really, it's up to you to decide what to do with that piece of information. And the point isn't whether it is canon or not, the point is whether you want it to be. Life is complicated enough, at least this isn't. If you want it, you take it, if you don't, you leave it. The End. And I know I kinda see it as a canon source. As in, when I look at Dean, I integrate the whole silence into his past and what makes him what he is now - because it's too beautifully angsty for me not to take into account.
Speaking of SPN, I watched "Devil's Trap" again yesterday - needed to reward myself for sticking with Finkielkraut, see? - and each time I see it, it's like the first time. It doesn't matter that I know that John is, in fact, not!John, each time Dean pulls the colt to him and he's trying so hard not to back down and Sam is trying to understand what is going on, I want to cry. I only 'relax' - I use the term loosely, btw - when not!John finally reveals himself because at least the mental torture is over. Well, mental torture part 1, that is.
Also, not!John poisoning Dean's mind and attacking him on his insecurities won't ever NOT be deliciously painful. And apparently, I won't ever not feel my heart race when not!John is bleeding Dean and Dean is pleading with his father. Just - God, that scene... it's so fucking good I could spend a hundred years watching it, and I'd still feel the same emotions. Finally, the rear-view mirror scene won't ever stop being intense and beautiful.
Something else I don't think I'll ever get tired of is JDM's performance when he's being not!John. He's so fucking awesome! I wish I'd felt the same way towards Meg, it would have been nice, but at least JDM totally made up for it. His voice, his postures... the way he leans toward Dean... it's so intimate and so wrong and so brilliant. Big Baddie is toying with the boys and he's obviously having the time of his life and it shows and I JUST LOVE THE WHOLE SCENE TO PIECES. The End.
tallisen asked her flist to make a list of all SPN episodes, from favourite to least favourite and I would need to watch them all again to be able to choose - oh the chore! *rolls eyes* - but off the top of my head, I think the top of the list would look like this:1. The Journey Home
2. Devil's Trap
3. Faith
Then it would get a bit complicated because between "Asylum", "Salvation", "Something Wicked" and "Dead Man's Blood" I would need to, like, torture myself into picking an order. Though wait, the least favourite episode? Would be "Wendigo".
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Date: 2006-05-10 05:51 pm (UTC)Have you happened to see anything like that around? I'm desperate. ;_;
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Date: 2006-05-10 06:01 pm (UTC)Which okay, dude, I'm okay with that. I don't want to read that kind of fics but I accept that people in the fandom just don't like me and refuse to cater to my whim, you know? It sucks, but that's life in the SPN fandom. Whatever.
But! I still found this fic - the one I recc'ed in my post? - The Ice is Thin (http://mona1347.livejournal.com/191373.html#cutid2), which deals with a broken!Dean and, okay, maybe you'll read it and still find it lacking, but if you haven't yet, try to check it out? I know I loved it...