Supernatural 1x12 - "Faith"
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Now for the not!spammy thing. "Faith" has been watched and squeed over, wheee!
Supernatural 1x12 - "Faith"
I loved how right from the start we were told that the episode would be a tad different than usual - or say, that the focus would be, at any rate. Usually we start with the soontobedead!guestcharacters... this time it was our betterstayalive!belovedmaincharacters. Though considering that Dean was supposed to die, I guess they kept with the usual theme ;-)
The fact that everything happened so fast might have been a bit disconcerting but, at the same time, I thought it wasn't so bad in the sense that it gave things a confusing and urgent quality. It was like, one second we were with the brothers fighting a demon, the next everything had gone to hell and we didn't know where we were anymore... so the news that Dean was actually dying, even though a) I already knew about it and b) I obviously never doubted he would make it, certainly hurt me because OHMYGOD NOT MY DEAN!
I admit I was a bit surprised at first at Dean's resignation at the hospital. Then I thought it might not be so surprising in a way. Thing is, Dean had quite the pragmatic approach to the situation, and why not? Everything considered, it might not have been so out of there to me.
Dean knows that what they do is dangerous - does he ever - and he knows that death has always been a possibility, it's part of the job. He apparently accepted that fact a long time ago. Maybe he even imagined that moment a lot in his life. Then he knows what the doctor told him, that he now has a very short deadline - it's not a case of 'maybe' it's a sure thing. The injury he got in battle is turning fatal, yeah, those things happen, Dean assimilated the concept. And somehow, it would stand to reason that he might have accepted the situation for what it was: the expected consequence of his lifestyle. It's not as if he'd been electrocuted doing some gardening or whatever, he saved - he and Sam, I mean - two children, he fell in the battlefield so to speak. It's like, it was worth it, it wasn't for nothing, it was how it was supposed to be, so what the big deal?
Or hey, maybe the guy does have a death wish somewhere deep inside. Who the hell knows? His survival instinct wasn't exactly kicking but sometimes you just have to accept things. And maybe that's what happened with Dean. Like, what was he going to do? Start giving Sam hope that they were something to do that would save him? Only to die in the end and leave a broken Sam, who - no doubt about that - would have felt even more guilty about his brother's death than if Dean had just given up like he did in the episode... Maybe Dean was sort of absolving Sam of potential misplaced guilt, I don't know, a sort of "There is nothing to be done, there's nothing you can do and I'm okay with that. It's not your fault" thing.
As if it would work! But at least he tried.
Also this is where I admit that Sam totally did it for me. No, he didn't come first at all, that place is still for Dean, but Sam was awesome in that episode. The loyalty, the determination to - literally - cheat death and save his brother, the sheer despair, that was just wonderful. He really made me ache for him.
That scene at the motel room when he calls his dad - man, I'm developping a new kink, I swear! teary!phone call kink. But seriously, the scene was so sad! Here he was, calling their dad and being a brave soldier, not giving up, certainly not giving up even though he was terrified at the idea of losing his brother and he looked so, I don't know, fucking alone! Can you imagine? His brother is dying in that hospital room and Sam has no one to talk to right this moment. He's completely alone and just - man, he broke my heart.
I also loved how human Sam was. And by that, I don't mean how good and compassionate he was but how... dark? Because when he realises someone else died in Dean's place? I don't think he felt that guilty. I mean, sure, he did apologise to Dean, but it was obviously what Dean wanted to hear at that moment... I'm not sure anyone would feel 100% guilty after saving their brother from death - no matter what happened in the process. Like, yes it was horrible that someone else died and of course Sam had to feel something about it - after all, that might have been someone's else brother, even, but it was not Sam's and it made a world difference, maybe.
Which brings me to something funny because know what? Somehow, I've always had the feeling that Sam had a darker side than Dean's... and I have no idea why I feel that.
Though one might argue that Dean, being ready to kill a human the same way he would be ready to kill a demon, shows he can do dark and yeah, I'm not denying that... but there's this feeling I have and dude, can't do anything against it *blink*
Btw, I quite enjoyed that whole conversation; when Dean wants to kill Roy and Sam doesn't because killing demons is one thing but killing humans is another entirely. Now, of course, I'm wondering whether Dean ever killed a human before. Which would have happened when Sam was in college, then. Hmm, the pull of the fic is strong in that one.
Yeah anyway, I enjoyed so many things in that episode that it would take a long time to list them all but still, I can do a summary: I loved each and every single scene with Dean. The man angsts so beautifully it should be illegal. He's so emotional I'm always amazed when people don't see it. Which okay, we all see things differently but to me it's so obvious, know what I mean? It's there in his voice, in the way he talks, the way he acts, it's in his body gesture and all... to me, Dean is one hell of an emotional guy. He just doesn't like to dwell on that. But it's so there, man! Which is why I love him so much *happy sigh*
I enjoyed how he seemed to have such trouble coping with the fact that someone had died in his place, how guilty he felt. And then how guilty when he realised he was literally going to condemn someone else to death, this time being actively responsible for it - which yeah, had to sound so hypocritical of him at the time. Talk about a dilemma. And a heartbreak too. He really put the angst to work in that episode, didn't he? Also, technically I might have rolled my eyes at the apparition of - of course - a beautiful woman in the midst of it all. As if the storyline wasn't complete if a beautiful woman hadn't been added. But I decided to just go with the flow and focus on how angsty the whole thing was... how much more personal it made it all for Dean, how much more complicated and sad.
Also? Well that was Darla so yeah, definitely going with the flow here. And man but can't that woman ever live in peace? *wants to protect her from all kind illnesses*
The last scene now... I enjoyed. I quite liked how Sam was the one who called Layla - Sam has been protecting and taking care of his brother from start to finish in that episode, hasn't he? - and liked their conversation, if only because Dean was all choked up and sounded quite lost.
Also I wondered whether his line about how disappointing it must be to have faith in something and to be let down by it referred to Layla's situation only or if it also referred to him somehow. As for their last exchange... well, usually the whole "I'll pray for you" doesn't do it that much for me. It sounds so... so American and it doesn't always resonate with me. I mean, before I came on-line and interacted with so many American, I'd never ever heard people say stuff like "please keep us in your prayers". But it didn't matter here because the whole point of the scene was that Dean was ready to say something like that... and I loved Layla's come back, even though it might have sounded corny. I don't know, I thought it was a beautiful thing to say... and it did ring true to me. I mean, I do believe that there are all kind of miracles...
My little randomy thoughts now:
The reaper - which was an 'a' not a 'the' okay - was fugly too! Those guys always remind of that episode of "Buffy" that scared the hell out of me
Dean is so pretty it hurts sometimes. I know I pretty much covered that already, well, tough!
Since I'm on the subject, angsty!Dean is a thing of beauty... sick!Dean is as well only in a very disturbing way. I mean, he looked so fucking sick at first, wow.
Still on the subject: that scene when he's being healed and he falls to his knees? Dude, I had to rewind it once or twice or, you know, a lot more than that!
"I'm gonna die and you can't stop it" "Watch me" has to be one of the perfect dialogue ever! I cheered on Sam loudly here because YES!
I loved how for Sue Ann, a gay man or an abortionist ranked higher than, say, a rapist or a murderer - though, obviously, in her mind it was actually totally the same thing. That woman was seriously sick!
I have to say Sam's call to his dad is going to haunt me for a long time to come. In particular if it never ever comes up again. The guy all but told John that his son was dying. I mean, if he does check his messages over there... he'll have to call back. He can't not call. That's... unconceivable.
So yeah, I loved the episode! It feels weird though because I've been kinda obsessing over "Faith" for so long that I feel all squee-empty now lol Need to find a new episode to anticipate and squee over :-)
Also, in honour of "Faith" here is a little song I downloaded just last week - must have been fate or something lol
Don't Fear the Reaper - my version is by [the?] Ceasars.
admiralandrea a Happy Birthday! Hope your day will be full of fun and yummy things :-)Now for the not!spammy thing. "Faith" has been watched and squeed over, wheee!
Supernatural 1x12 - "Faith"
I loved how right from the start we were told that the episode would be a tad different than usual - or say, that the focus would be, at any rate. Usually we start with the soontobedead!guestcharacters... this time it was our betterstayalive!belovedmaincharacters. Though considering that Dean was supposed to die, I guess they kept with the usual theme ;-)
The fact that everything happened so fast might have been a bit disconcerting but, at the same time, I thought it wasn't so bad in the sense that it gave things a confusing and urgent quality. It was like, one second we were with the brothers fighting a demon, the next everything had gone to hell and we didn't know where we were anymore... so the news that Dean was actually dying, even though a) I already knew about it and b) I obviously never doubted he would make it, certainly hurt me because OHMYGOD NOT MY DEAN!
I admit I was a bit surprised at first at Dean's resignation at the hospital. Then I thought it might not be so surprising in a way. Thing is, Dean had quite the pragmatic approach to the situation, and why not? Everything considered, it might not have been so out of there to me.
Dean knows that what they do is dangerous - does he ever - and he knows that death has always been a possibility, it's part of the job. He apparently accepted that fact a long time ago. Maybe he even imagined that moment a lot in his life. Then he knows what the doctor told him, that he now has a very short deadline - it's not a case of 'maybe' it's a sure thing. The injury he got in battle is turning fatal, yeah, those things happen, Dean assimilated the concept. And somehow, it would stand to reason that he might have accepted the situation for what it was: the expected consequence of his lifestyle. It's not as if he'd been electrocuted doing some gardening or whatever, he saved - he and Sam, I mean - two children, he fell in the battlefield so to speak. It's like, it was worth it, it wasn't for nothing, it was how it was supposed to be, so what the big deal?
Or hey, maybe the guy does have a death wish somewhere deep inside. Who the hell knows? His survival instinct wasn't exactly kicking but sometimes you just have to accept things. And maybe that's what happened with Dean. Like, what was he going to do? Start giving Sam hope that they were something to do that would save him? Only to die in the end and leave a broken Sam, who - no doubt about that - would have felt even more guilty about his brother's death than if Dean had just given up like he did in the episode... Maybe Dean was sort of absolving Sam of potential misplaced guilt, I don't know, a sort of "There is nothing to be done, there's nothing you can do and I'm okay with that. It's not your fault" thing.
As if it would work! But at least he tried.
Also this is where I admit that Sam totally did it for me. No, he didn't come first at all, that place is still for Dean, but Sam was awesome in that episode. The loyalty, the determination to - literally - cheat death and save his brother, the sheer despair, that was just wonderful. He really made me ache for him.
That scene at the motel room when he calls his dad - man, I'm developping a new kink, I swear! teary!phone call kink. But seriously, the scene was so sad! Here he was, calling their dad and being a brave soldier, not giving up, certainly not giving up even though he was terrified at the idea of losing his brother and he looked so, I don't know, fucking alone! Can you imagine? His brother is dying in that hospital room and Sam has no one to talk to right this moment. He's completely alone and just - man, he broke my heart.
I also loved how human Sam was. And by that, I don't mean how good and compassionate he was but how... dark? Because when he realises someone else died in Dean's place? I don't think he felt that guilty. I mean, sure, he did apologise to Dean, but it was obviously what Dean wanted to hear at that moment... I'm not sure anyone would feel 100% guilty after saving their brother from death - no matter what happened in the process. Like, yes it was horrible that someone else died and of course Sam had to feel something about it - after all, that might have been someone's else brother, even, but it was not Sam's and it made a world difference, maybe.
Which brings me to something funny because know what? Somehow, I've always had the feeling that Sam had a darker side than Dean's... and I have no idea why I feel that.
Though one might argue that Dean, being ready to kill a human the same way he would be ready to kill a demon, shows he can do dark and yeah, I'm not denying that... but there's this feeling I have and dude, can't do anything against it *blink*
Btw, I quite enjoyed that whole conversation; when Dean wants to kill Roy and Sam doesn't because killing demons is one thing but killing humans is another entirely. Now, of course, I'm wondering whether Dean ever killed a human before. Which would have happened when Sam was in college, then. Hmm, the pull of the fic is strong in that one.
Yeah anyway, I enjoyed so many things in that episode that it would take a long time to list them all but still, I can do a summary: I loved each and every single scene with Dean. The man angsts so beautifully it should be illegal. He's so emotional I'm always amazed when people don't see it. Which okay, we all see things differently but to me it's so obvious, know what I mean? It's there in his voice, in the way he talks, the way he acts, it's in his body gesture and all... to me, Dean is one hell of an emotional guy. He just doesn't like to dwell on that. But it's so there, man! Which is why I love him so much *happy sigh*
I enjoyed how he seemed to have such trouble coping with the fact that someone had died in his place, how guilty he felt. And then how guilty when he realised he was literally going to condemn someone else to death, this time being actively responsible for it - which yeah, had to sound so hypocritical of him at the time. Talk about a dilemma. And a heartbreak too. He really put the angst to work in that episode, didn't he? Also, technically I might have rolled my eyes at the apparition of - of course - a beautiful woman in the midst of it all. As if the storyline wasn't complete if a beautiful woman hadn't been added. But I decided to just go with the flow and focus on how angsty the whole thing was... how much more personal it made it all for Dean, how much more complicated and sad.
Also? Well that was Darla so yeah, definitely going with the flow here. And man but can't that woman ever live in peace? *wants to protect her from all kind illnesses*
The last scene now... I enjoyed. I quite liked how Sam was the one who called Layla - Sam has been protecting and taking care of his brother from start to finish in that episode, hasn't he? - and liked their conversation, if only because Dean was all choked up and sounded quite lost.
Also I wondered whether his line about how disappointing it must be to have faith in something and to be let down by it referred to Layla's situation only or if it also referred to him somehow. As for their last exchange... well, usually the whole "I'll pray for you" doesn't do it that much for me. It sounds so... so American and it doesn't always resonate with me. I mean, before I came on-line and interacted with so many American, I'd never ever heard people say stuff like "please keep us in your prayers". But it didn't matter here because the whole point of the scene was that Dean was ready to say something like that... and I loved Layla's come back, even though it might have sounded corny. I don't know, I thought it was a beautiful thing to say... and it did ring true to me. I mean, I do believe that there are all kind of miracles...
My little randomy thoughts now:
So yeah, I loved the episode! It feels weird though because I've been kinda obsessing over "Faith" for so long that I feel all squee-empty now lol Need to find a new episode to anticipate and squee over :-)
Also, in honour of "Faith" here is a little song I downloaded just last week - must have been fate or something lol
Don't Fear the Reaper - my version is by [the?] Ceasars.
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Date: 2006-01-18 11:27 pm (UTC)Dean, ahh Dean, where the hell did this feeling of low self worth come from? He does deserve to live. He also broke my heart.
Squee.
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Date: 2006-01-19 11:59 am (UTC)Yeah, where does it come from exactly! Also, did you see, when the reaper came to him at the end? He didn't even try to run! That kidna upset me a bit *has her heart broken into wee pieces too*
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Date: 2006-01-18 11:29 pm (UTC)Man, this show just keeps on getting better, it's amazing!
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Date: 2006-01-19 12:07 pm (UTC)I'm so in love with SPN it's not even funny!
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Date: 2006-01-18 11:45 pm (UTC)Thanks for the music.
Here is a little something (http://s5.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=15ASA9D73N1YZ2P79B1CSB0IUX) as a reward.
Enjoy ;D
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Date: 2006-01-19 12:08 pm (UTC)And thanks *off to download*
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Date: 2006-01-19 12:16 am (UTC)*sighs*
SO MUCH LOVE!
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Date: 2006-01-19 12:11 pm (UTC)SO MUCH LOVE!
TELL ME ABOUT IT!
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Date: 2006-01-19 12:22 am (UTC)Oh well, I'm going to take my disappointed, party pooping self and try and think happier thoughts for the next ep, whenever that is!
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Date: 2006-01-19 12:15 pm (UTC)It's not that I disagree with anything you said; it's the overall feeling I have after watching it.
After your comment I chose to go and read your review first cause I was curious to see where our view of the episode differed and I have to say, like you, it's not that I disagree with everything you said, but it is the overall feeling that differs, yes *nods*
party pooping self and try and think happier thoughts for the next ep, whenever that is!
I have no idea what the next episode will be - and it's weird now because it feels like there's something missing in my SPN obession lol
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Date: 2006-01-19 12:49 am (UTC)Somehow, I've always had the feeling that Sam had a darker side than Dean's... and I have no idea why I feel that.
Maybe because Dean is wearing his dark side openly, while with Sam you sort of catch these glimpses?
Dean is one hell of an emotional guy.
He is, he is. I've been re-watching some episodes to check a DVD, and I'm getting a better Dean-vibe, in Phantom Traveler and Bl... You-Know-Who especially. Dean's just not fond of words, but his body is very talkative.
I've been kinda obsessing over "Faith" for so long that I feel all squee-empty now
See, that's why I prefer to go unspoiled. :> This way I never squee in anticipation, so there's no risk to feel like reality hasn't been up to the standards set by the squee. ;)
Oh, and I bet they did the phone thing on purpose, as a parallel of sorts. (What makes them call their unreachable dad, what do they say or what they expect and so on.) Dean asked for advice or help; Sam... didn't, and he tried to be reassuring and confident, even if he was trying to convince himself too.
As if the storyline wasn't complete if a beautiful woman hadn't been added.
This is TV, and not any TV, it's SPN - of course there had to be at least one young, beautiful woman. ;)
Now I'm curious how far Dean would go for Sam.
Also I wondered whether his line about how disappointing it must be to have faith in something and to be let down by it referred to Layla's situation only or if it also referred to him somehow.
And I was just wondering in connection with what you said; Dean's strength and certainty comes from his unabashed faith in his father. Only something about John could shake his world, but if it did, it would leave him groundless. Sam's more his own man, he relies less on outside things. I don't think the show will go there, but I'd like to see Dean confronted with the shattering of his world. As a character study, of course, not because he does good angst. *cough*
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Date: 2006-01-19 12:21 pm (UTC)Seriously? lol So I embraced the Sam love during that episode and you kinda embraced the Dean love yourself? That episode was good lol
Dean's just not fond of words, but his body is very talkative.
It so is. His face always kills me... and his voice!
This way I never squee in anticipation, so there's no risk to feel like reality hasn't been up to the standards set by the squee. ;)
I have to say I wasn't disappointed by "Faith" at all. Admittedly though, it's usually smarter not to get too hyper about a soon-to-come episode because odds are you'll end up disappointed. But here, it just feels weird not to even have the slightest idea of what is going to happen next...
Dean asked for advice or help; Sam... didn't,
Totally, and can you guess how much I enjoyed that difference between the brothers? lol
I don't think the show will go there, but I'd like to see Dean confronted with the shattering of his world. As a character study, of course, not because he does good angst.
That would be so awesome. As a character study, of course, not becaue of good angst. Also, did you know a hurt!Dean challenge was being organised? Cause it is - physical or emotional hurt, a writer just needs to go to town...
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Date: 2006-01-19 04:49 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-01-19 12:22 pm (UTC)That episode was LOVE and a thing of beauty and I love my show so SO MUCH!
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Date: 2006-01-19 08:09 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-01-19 12:22 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-01-19 11:08 pm (UTC)Il y a quelques jours, j'ai vu sur VH1 le clip de Don't Fear The Reaper (version annees 70) et je me disais: elle est sympa cette chanson, faut que je la trouve.
Merci ^__^
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Date: 2006-01-19 11:17 pm (UTC)Cette chanson, elle a toute une histoire - alors quand j'ai pu la télécharger la semaine dernière, j'étais toute croque ! Ensuite est arrivé "Faith" et je me suis dit, que vraiment, c'était le destin !
Bref, tout ça pour dire; je t'en prie, bien contente que tu aies apprécié le fichier :-)