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So. My Awesome French Posse Weekend? Isn't exactly happening as planned, as in it's not happening at all? Yes. Cramps 1 Mouse 0 *sigh*

It means I had to watch SPN 4x21 and 4x22 on my own. Man, SPN finales? Always make my heart beat faster. Literally. Who needs to go the gym when they can just watch the last episodes of a season of Supernatural ♥ ♥

Know what? It was almost worth the pain of seeing the brothers such at odds with each other all this season for that last shot of them clinging to each other's shirts. Almost. But, man, even with Lucifer rising right in front of me, which was bad, the one thing I could think of was 'SAM AND DEAN ARE BACK TOGETHER! THEY'RE A TEAM AGAIN! THANK YOU KRIPKE!' We SPN fangirls sure know where our priorities are lol

Dean almost gave up Sam! He found out he has - well, thought he has - lines, after all. This part totally freaked me out. Dean! Giving up on Sam and just letting him go and - *dies*

Even though I'm happy that Bobby is always here for the boys and ready to tell them when in they're in the wrong, I'll be honest and admit that I wasn't thrilled at Bobby's method to bring Dean back on rail.

I know it worked,I know it was necessary; it doesn't mean I have to like the way he did it - or more like, I don't like he went the 'you're a whiny bitch' route. I wish people stopped calling Dean a whiner - since when feeling depressed about having spend forty years in hell all the while being tortured then turning into a monster should be considered 'whining'? No, I know, that was another episode, but that's beside the point.

Since when did feeling depressed and sad and lost because you think you're losing - or has already lost - your own brother become 'whining'? Argh! Though the 'wonder if Sam ever was my brother' thing was definitely too much.

Something I'm 100% glad Bobby did was tell Dean that he's a better man that John ever was - and I've always loved John (yes, with all his flaws and his fucked-up'ness) so...

In the end, family, Sam, was still more important than anger and disappointment and fear. Good thing Dean is Dean.

I howled "OH PUTAIN" (translation: "HOLY FUCKING HIT") at the screen when Sam listened to the fake!phone message. Man, it made me ache! But then it also showed how much Sam still needed Dean, even so far gone. There was something making him hesitate before the message, there wasn't after.

Not that I'm writing him as a victim - free will has been a hot topic all this season and he was always the one who took the decisions but if he'd heard Dean's real message, I wonder if things would have been a bit more interesting for Ruby, ie maybe she would have had to work a littler harder yet to make Sam do what she needed him to.

Or not, because I think one of Sam's biggest flaw is his pride so, between his genuine belief that he was doing something necessary and his pride, it's not always that difficult to steer him in the (wrong)right direction. But whatever! That phone message killed me dead, is what I wanted to say.

CASTIEL! Oh, Castiel, I loved you like burning before, but after this episode? I just have no idea how to express my love for you! You turned your back on everything you were supposed to believe in for Dean! The lies and the Apocalypse and the deaths don't even count because in the end it meant Dean could finally know peace! *melts*

I mean, that's how I heard it - that Dean is totally worth all the lies and the deaths and the pain *cough*

I was screaming at him to do something - SPN makes me talk to my tv a lot - in the "green room" all the while feeling so bad for him because he's sucha woobie with the confusion and the eyes and the looks and the bowed head. And then Dean was all 'we're done' and I was like 'nooooooooo' - don't break up with Castiel!

I did mention SPN finales really stress me out, right? Good.

Anyway, then here he was, with the knife and the cutting himself and, ok, that scene when he's using his own blood on the wall shouldn't be hot? But it just was.

Also, they totally DID NOT KILL Castiel, right? I'm asking because when the archangels - and er, what that plural? - arrived at Chuck's - which, hi Chuck, hi!! - I got a bit scared for him. They can't kill Castiel, right?

Speaking of killing - how awesome was it when Dean went to plunge the knife in Ruby and Sam simultaneously hold her arms? They were a team again! Without a single word between them and bye-bye Ruby! Which, I almost felt sorry for her? No, seriously, she's done all that work to bring Lucifer back, took all those risks, and she won't even get to see the result? I felt almost sorry for her. I stress the 'almost'. But she was good, she did manage to create a rift between the brother, that's impressive.

What about Anna? I do hope we get to hear about her next season. Also, Anna? I'm really sorry you're not Dean because if that had been the case? Castiel would never have let them drag you away *pets her*

Oh and turns out Dean broke the first seal and Sam broke the last. I thought it was a nice symmetry. If by 'nice' you mean 'fucked-up', mind you, but you know what I mean...

And I can't believe how they ended the episode! Talk about a cliffhanger *iz scared* Next season should be interesting *bounces*

Oh show, you never fail to make me the happiest of fangirls ♥ ♥

It's official now, it's hiatus time *pout* No Dollhouse - good news is that we should get a second season \o/ - and no Supernatural... Hiatus, why are you always so mean to us?